(1) SOMETHING YOU HATE ABOUT YOURSELF.

 It sounds slightly unusual, but when I sit down and really think about my life... I learn that I know nothing really about ME. I was searching through some of the other wonderful blogs on the 20sb.net crew, and fell upon a few that were doing this thing called "Thirty Days of Truth."
At first I was saying to myself that this sounds kind of dorky and wouldn't help me at all, but after reading the things that were brought up by these bloggers (check out Lily's... it's like stepping into her mind) it became apparent that this was more like a form of mental therapy. I am a firm believer that no matter who you might be there will be lots of relief in your life from just talking (or Typing about it). So here goes day 1!

(1) SOMETHING YOU HATE ABOUT YOURSELF.


Well, I have a few of these, but there is one or two that really stand-out in my mind. First I hate my lifestyle of fear. I fear pretty much everything in the world. Ok... not everything. But, kind of like a fear of success. I scare myself out of doing things just because I talk myself into thinking that I will fail. Therefor, I don't try anything much that is new or could even be remotely considered as risky. For instance, I fear this blog. What it might bring out of the deepest, darkest parts of my thoughts. What if this blog stops me from having a job in the future, because sadly sometimes companies will not hire people if they are GAY. But, as a first step of recovery from this sadistic way of destructive living, I will write on here anyways. (Even though my gramatics might be horrendous!!) I will promise to tell you the whole truth and nothing but the truth. 

One of my biggest dreams is to start my own business of some sorts and this fear completely stops me in my tracks any time I have an idea that is worth two cents. I know that I am capable of fulfilling this dream, but with this one fear it becomes hard to take more than one step outside my comfort-zone. Maybe after this 30 days there will be a change in my mindset... we can all work on this one together!

Thirty Days of Truth (1) Something you hate about yourself. (2) Something you love about yourself. (3) Something you have to forgive yourself for. (4) Something you have to forgive someone for. (5) Something you hope to do in your life. (6) Something you hope you never have to do. (7) Someone who has made your life worth living for. (8) Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit. (9) Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted. (10) Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know. (11) Something people seem to compliment you the most on. (12) Something you never get compliments on. (13) A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.) (14) A hero that has let you down. (letter) (15) Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it. (16) Someone or something you definitely could live without. (17) A book you’ve read that changed your views on something. (18) Your views on gay marriage. (19) What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics? (20)views on drugs and alcohol. (21) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do? (22) Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life. (23) Something you wish you had done in your life. (24) Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter) (25) The reason you believe you’re still alive today. (26) Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why? (27) What’s the best thing going for you right now? (28) What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do? (29) Something you hope to change about yourself. And why. (30) A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself .